Well hello Aunt Flo!

I was due to see Aunt Flo yesterday and she got my hopes up of my first cycle of trying to conceive (TTC) I struggled but managed to wait to do a test till this morning (obviously a BFN) and half way through my working day BLAM there she was and god was she!!!!

I don’t know if anyone else has had the same problems as me but since I have been off the pill my periods are awful, this one seems to be exceptionally heavy and painful, I have been to the doctors and been told I have signs of POS (poly cystic ovaries) but not the syndrome and the pill helps to control my cycles and the pain so that’s the reason why I have to suffer like this! Oh well it will be worth it when I finally get my bump!

I was never expecting, hoping but not expecting to get pregnant straight away but it’s still a little dis heartening to find out your not, has anyone else got any good news this month?

Hey hoo…. Cycle 2 here we go!!!


False symptoms or to early to tell?

So I’m 12 days past ovulation with a LP of 16 days on average so AF is due on Tuesday, for the last few days I have been having waves of sickness come over me, food is tasting strange and I have been getting cramps.

This morning I had convinced myself that it must be because I am pregnant and rushed out to get a pregnancy test, the “First Response” range say they will tell you 6 days before the day of your missed period but the % of it being positive if you are preggo is less. I was so excited I really thought it was going to come up with those two pink lines so when I got my negative reading I felt soooooo deflated, who knows maybe its to early to tell, maybe I just have some kind of ill/bug or maybe I’m making it all up because I want it to be true.

I have told myself that I am going to wait for AF to be late then test the next day but as I brought 3 sticks to pee on I am sure I will get temped before that!

It’s only my first cycle #1 and everything is all very new and exciting, I cant stop looking at baby clothes, baby everything in fact! it’s on my mind from the minute I wake up to the minute I fall to sleep! I wonder if it gets easier to think about other things, I feel like I will get consumed with baby fever before the year is through.

I would love to here your thought, feelings and stories on TTC, even if to stop me feeling so looney lol!


My needle phobia and TTC

Today I have mostly been thinking about being pregnant!

what if I am?

Now don’t get me wrong I would be ecstatic if I am, in fact I did a pregnancy test this morning, why I don’t know as it’s far to early but this exciting first 2ww is killing me! But the thoughts of being pregnant are not what’s on the fore front of my mind today, I’m needle phobic, and I mean phobic not scared, I’m petrified.

what will I do when I have to have the blood tests?

I have been researching hypnotherapy, has anybody tried it before? I don’t know how else I am going to get over it, at the moment I use Valium before I have a needle but I’m pretty sure during pregnancy you can’t take it? Or at least there can be consequences for example if you take it in your first trimester you can give you baby a cleft palate and other birth defects, however if you come near me with a needle my blood pressure goes sky high a have a panic attack, I can’t breath and I’m generally a state, I can Imagine this is not great for a baby either!

I have been reading some forums on woman who take Valium whilst pregnant and they were being called monsters and other nasty thing, I couldn’t believe it, these woman were not taking Valium for fun! it’s not a recreational drug they are using it to treat a problem! I could believe how cruel other mothers were being.

I don’t know what I am going to do the day I do get pregnant, I would really like to get through the injections and blood tests with out the help of medication but I can’t say for sure what I will do until I get there.

Your feed back on this would be great, what are your opinions and do you have and advise? Please don’t be cruel this is a sensitive subject for me.


Early signs of pregnancy or all in my head?

So now I’m 8DPO and I’m laying in bed feeling a bit sick but to be honest I have been awake for a few hour and if I wasn’t TTC (trying to conceive) I would probably just be thinking

I’m hungry better have some breakfast, it’s making me feel a bit sick

But I’m not, I’m laying here thinking

I wonder if this a sign that I’m pregnant

I found this great website click here to view it it’s a count down to pregnancy and the symptoms you can get
Here’s the chart I found on 8 days past ovulation symptoms


So here is what I think my symptoms may be at this stage…
Slight feeling of nausea
Have been very emotional for the past few days
Strong sense of smell
Slight cramping in my ovaries the last few days
Some creamy CM (cervical mucus) nice I know!,! Lol
And another nice one… Wind, and lots of it (lovely)

A lot of these could be explained by the fact I want out for dinner yesterday to a lovely restaurant, ate to much (hence feeling hungry and sick this morning) and would explain where the wind is coming from!

The CM can be quite normal a week before AF (aunt flow/period) is due to arrive and let’s face it I’m a girl, being emotional is what I am good at!

However the strong sense of smell is strange!

Are you are my stage in your cycle and so you have any symptoms? Leave me a comment it would be great to hear from you.

On that note I’m off to get some breakfast!



Pregnancy Vitamins

I have been doing a lot of reading up on vitamins and from what I can tell you need a good balance or the right ones and not to many of the wrong ones so…. my daily multi-vitamin is out and the Pregnacare vitamins are in!

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not doing everything advised whist trying ie: giving up alcohol, not eating soft cheese and to much oily fish, and once I find out I am I will stop all of these and anything else advised but I do believe it is right to have the correct vitamins inside you, however… if it does take me a long time to conceive I may change my game plan!

What are your thoughts on all of this? it would be great to hear from you



The 2 Week Wait

This is my first 2 week wait (or 2ww as known in the online community) or in my case 16 day wait as i have a Luteal Phase (or LP) of 16 days instead of the standard 14.

It’s strange, as far as I can remember i have never wanted my period not to come, we all have the odd mishap and you spend the few weeks praying that your not pregnant, its strange to feel differently about it, to be longing for AF (as in Aunt Flo, your period) not to arrive.

So at the moment I am 7 DPO (days post ovulation) you can find all this “lingo” on this great website I found called www.twoweekwait.com by the way, trust me its really confusing trying to work it out on you own! anyway 7 DPO I know this as I have been peeing on sticks all month waiting for the day I ovulated and made sure we did the “Baby Dance” a lot around that time!

I don’t really feel anything different going on inside me at the moment, I do however think I keep making things up in my head, this morning i was convinced that I felt sick and the other day I though I had stomach cramps so of course I jump on google looking for “early pregnancy signs”  which confuses me even more! I know the only option is to wait but I want to know now!!!!

According to the pregnancy tests I brought (First Response) I can test 5 days before my period is due so that’s on Thursday but………. there’s only a 62% chance it will be accurate, on Friday a 78% chance, Saturday an 87% chance, 98% on Sunday and 99% Monday with AF due to arrive on Tuesday. Now I know the sensible thing to do would be wait until Tuesday and see if my period arrives but its hard to be that patient and I know I will test on Thursday and at least twice more (as I have a pack of 3 tests) before Tuesday!

Anyway that’s all for now. wish me luck! I would love to hear from you so please do follow my journey and let me know your thoughts and experiences



My Bumpy intro

I am writing a blog as a way to keep track of my experiences, as a diary, as a way to help other woman TTC (trying to conceive that is!) and though pregnancy understand what I am struggling to understand right now!

This is all new to me, now, I’m not pregnant, well not that I know of but we are TTC, a week ago I didn’t have much of a clue about anything and to be totally honest I still don’t! I am going through this journey picking things up as I go along and this blog is a great opportunity for me to share anything I learn with you.

So what can I tell you, I’m in my early 30s, my partner and I have been together for several years, brought a place and have decided to have a baby, we both feel ready and are really excited about it.

I really hope you enjoy my blog and I have it’s full of happiness and not to much upset, I’ll try and share all I can and I would love to here your comments and suggestions as I am at the very start of this journey.